questioning your salvation?

It's so tempting to believe that I have everything figured out. But after some convicting conversations and soul searching, I've realized the best thing to do in any situation in life is go back to square one.

What do I know for sure?

I know that Jesus is my Lord and that He loves me. I know that I am to live my life in such a way that I honor the gospel and shame my sin.



How easy those words flow out when I type them, but how stuttered they've been manifested in my life. The expose' on my heart is that I don't always put Christ first. I don't even do it most of the time. Isn't that scary?? It really scares me, to the point that I question my own salvation.

I question my salvation because so often I'm like that child who, with one hand, holds onto her Father's hand, and with the other, dabbles with the world.

What if I'm not saved? What if I'm living a lie?

Those questions, especially after a failing performance in holiness, seem to nag and nag and nag. Is there ever relief?

Yes.

I would even venture to say that those who don't, at times, question their salvation may be missing out on one of the sweetest reassurances, often cried out in tears: "YES!!! I am a child of God. I want to love You more, oh sweet heavenly Father, and I want to know how to please You in everything!"

If you are questioning your salvation because of something sinful you've done, let me ask you this, "What is the foundation of your salvation?"

It's normal, not correct or right, but normal to think that somehow, someway we should be paying penitence for our salvation. We should do something in return for the riches upon riches we have inherited. Surely God, in His justice, would not have us believe we can't do anything to atone for our sins?

You know this is wrong. Right? But maybe you should reread what I wrote up there. Maybe you need another conk in the head. Like me. :)

If death and peril are completely unable to separate us from the love of God, what can? Certainly no power we can conjure.

Believer, take heed that when you question your salvation you don't fall into pride but that you also don't fall into self-loathing.

Remember the foundation of your salvation. It is Jesus. It is Jesus. It is Jesus. Not you. Not you. Not you.