He is faithful when we are faithless

 But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. ⁸ We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; ⁹ persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; ¹⁰ always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies.

 ~2.Cor.4.7~10

You want to know something that is so so encouraging??? God is on our side.

Yep. He made us. He loves us. He always gives us good gifts to grow us and to change us, to show us our sins and continually point us to the cross.



This afternoon while getting ready for a photo shoot I stepped up on my bed to get something from a high shelf that is right above my bed. Somehow within that movement I totally jumped on my bad knee which produced a loud tearing noise and instant intense pain.

If you guys have ever experienced a torn ligament or muscle you know that this sort of pain is a unique experience. It will literally reduce you to a blubbering fool.

I told my dad just recently that I wish I had broken my leg cause then at least it would have been better by now.



But honestly, the most painful part of hurting myself was just thinking about how long it had taken me to get to the point where I was virtually pain-free to go all the way back to square 1.

I wasn't limping at all or showing any signs of a torn ACL besides a few hilarious little trips or stumbles.

But now, well, I am utterly in pain and feeling disappointed. To be honest, this was not how I pictured my last semester of college.

However, I do have a little hope. I know that my Savior is also my Creator. He loves me.

My dad and I just talked on the phone for a bit and it was so encouraging to hear Him remind me of the fact that God has a perfect plan in all of this. He said, "God is doing this for your benefit. So repent of any frustration you may be feeling."

Also, a sweet friend of mine wrote this to me in a text message, "It's through the hard and difficult times that we find out if we truly believe that God is able in all things."

So true. And to be honest. It's so so so hard to maintain a joyful attitude. I don't want to be content or joyful. I want to be miserable and unhappy all the time. Most of all, I want for everyone else around me to wear sackcloth and ashes and mourn alongside me.

But that's not what we are called to. We are called to a much higher purpose. We are called to glorify and revel in the greatness of God and His Son, Jesus.